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So sad, so funny I actually got into it.Develop something new jackass.Thats how I felt,ya something like that.The whole lot of them,what were they thinking?Did they realize they might never be seen again after walking out that door?Its a horrible feeling.Freaking out after getting cut by an old drunk sugar mama in her senseless little world.Burned at a young age she drank a lot of booze waiting for death.Yet she had no will.She wasn't very good with the life she had been given.Obviously it was hardly worth livin.Life was cruel,and pain was an investment.She had no money.She lost her sugar mama status.She felt like crap.She was really hurt.There was no new development.I am still stunned what she said to me.Your horrible she proclaimed,your kidding right, said I.My little world makes a lot more sense,said she.The absurdity of the statement is given,I thought to myself,still she persisted.Without her demands I should be good to go,yup I really love this,a chance to breathe a chance to be relieved.I left her standing at the door,with her pride bleeding on the floor.All her other patrons were long down the road,and this all happened so long ago.life is short i am small yall...arrogance is lonelinessI hate no one I used to love everyone this is no longer true sorry fuck you and or a you...Walk a mile in my shoes?Hell you aint even seen my shoes.Judge me begrudge me how dare you....last first beat or worst...you think that I'm unaware but the truth is i dont fuckin care this old boy doesnt fuckin care,never did never change never waiver just not my flavor...as a father I cry and the children only wonder why,the whole time just flew by the time instantly evaporated yet for them it dragged on ,to me it seemed not gone...I'm independent, I'm free,I'm practically who i want to be...A brief moment,but a moment..."what is gone today will come again tomorrow"mark ...Enjoy every aspect of life,every moment every regret,every success,every conclusion...holding on by a thread...my ears are free and clear of the rings that you fear...how are ya feelin are ya feelin ok I'm out drinkin and golfin just enjoyin the day...Always liked you,always did ,still do...I saw it coming it was not a surprise,so I reacted without hesitation took on a hopeless situation with total retaliation...I scratch my face like a duck but I don't float don't ram like a goat dont gloat gonna dig a moat and hope I don't...participation in the observation abomination... jump around...weak shallow inept,the usual,voilà....