Happy Halloween, no wait happy thanksgiving, what's the next time I can say hey,oh ya Christmas is coming I'll text you then if thats OK Just ignore me my old friend someday I'll just fade away then you'll be free of me no more text check mate you win I quit give in no shit lets face it you were never really worth it I was just way down and a little desperate so Christmas it is then I'll leave you alone, merry Christmas to you bitch

I was always destined for destruction despite the resurrection from the life of shame and disruption from routine normalcy some minor differences between you and me for instance your lies were always of substance my lies were futile resilance against make believe enemies I always thought surrounded me but they did not,never no woe too great never no song too long to write never too late to bring old truth to light two half wrongs won't make it right, still always I'll keep trying telling half truths like half lieing partly admitting partly denying conclusion, sophisticated bullshit spewing mass confusion creating endless verbal illusion only logic I shun a bit I just wasted your time get over it...Cause you wasted mine

If you think about it too long you'll always be disappointed

As the summer sun fades, we still go out to play somehow though its just not the same, shadows grows long, the brightest colors are gone we look within for strength, we try to remain strong we distract ourselves with holidays, celebrating our pagan ways, its OK brings us back together with family and friends, we do try to get along even if its just pretend, repetition leads to boredom, without enthusiasm frustration is just a passing thought, winter hibernation renews our soul at the expense of time...

Girl you feed me these lines that just melt my mind and pours out my hand and bleeds on the page I suddenly share my passion and rage try to sound relevant in this day and age trying to share everyones pain with everyone it seems so insane all the thoughts and lines you feed me just squeeze the juice from my brain and continues to tease me,take another shot share those thoughts please don't mind me, please don't stop... Dot dot dot

‎"like a ghost I'll be gone"you'll may believe in me or be just a little afraid of me you only know for sure you can no longer contain me, you may remember me as the insane me but just believe this, this miss aint gonna miss this chance to dismiss that mess you called this Bliss,wether you think you need this mess I don't digress Just cause its nearly Christmas and Theres other ghosts to contend with, you suddenly realize you miss this but you had the chance hop on the right ship and you missed it so, so long I'll make it right I'm Gonna take this flight, "like a ghost I'm gone"

My appreciation is extreme border line obscene so many holes in my soul makes it easy for the demons to get in but just as easy to leave nature baths me in beauty all my senses not just what I see I accept the pain physical mostly I don't know why everything has some affect on me but I love it its free and it frees me the demons have been bored with me lately they are sparse yet they wait perhaps one soul hole will close and keep one demon out I only hope its not one of my favorite ones,everyone needs company once in awhile so for now just sit back relax and smile...

You knew me before I knew myself you taught me countless amounts of philosophy how to deal with poverty, success and failure, and what is true wealth and to accept so much ,nothing more calming than your touch ,your hand resting on my head I don't always but often do refer to so many things you said I'm older now and better understand what you did for me I am brave I will refer to the strength you shared with me I shall share now for you...

Life is difficult not impossible..

I miss whatever it is about you that I miss

Don't over analyze it, just live it...

I waited to feel the joy of the holidays but it just never came its just not the same since the family went away no need for lights cause it just don't feel right no children singing no words to corny old songs, just blurred memories, they too are mostly gone, I don't care to be strong I am allowed to cry, thats my present to myself and that maybe a lie delivered by an elf,that its all OK it never really mattered anyway ,merry Christmas terri ,Papas gone away...

I truly enjoy your perspective of life of love of me what you think is sexy interesting ,dangerous amusing confusing ridiculous what makes you ticklish annoyed or fearless smile ness or picklepuss how or why you make a fuss and how you make my life so delicious it must just take such guts so mysterious so blatant wondrous thats why people stare at us they are so jealous and still I can't get enough your so tough you grew up rough but well thats all I got... Dot dot dot

I was happy in my harbor when you cut me free I'm slowly drifting past the inlet rocks drift out of the safety that surrounded me protected me from the angers of the the open ocean now the current carries me with uncertainty to uncharted waters and other sorted adventures the likes of which I have never seen and only seldom dreamed,soon the land and all known stability will fade completely I will drift for some time pass occaisional penisulas that jut out at me beckoning me to stop and look around but it slows my journey the search for some new harbor to set my anchor run aground,again protected from the giant sea and the maybe many fears and adventures that it offered me, do I choose complacency and safety, over adventure and freedom its mostly up to me...

We both realized that we're done and it's time for movin on sure we had some fun the spirit of love is gone we both do agree it's the end of you and me as we leave each others arms we set  each other free I 'm going to miss you and you already do miss me I must look you in the eye I must say to you good bye, the spirit of love is gone doesn't make us wrong we used to belong to each other but there has been a change in the weather now we no longer belong together this is our final song thre spirit of love is gone  

Clinging to the past its all I now own my passion has grown for the few great moments I have known searching for peace within is a short journey I must come out of my closed world search for new pain I have grown bored with the old when you light the fuse don't act surprised when something blows up don't pretend to be confused like you did not know keep your hands together when you walk as if to pray listen to what is said by others before you say your peace then continue on your way    

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She soothes me like no other before such a voice in sync with the universe loving diverse sincere undistracted humble I play you over and over again I do not tire of love obsession a welcome side affect of desperation I sigh now in peace no longer in despair I am at complete ease you are the reason you are the reason 

Space shots and crack POTS Wanda be,s and have Nots I know some they see me then run can't take the time to understand or have some fun I seem to seek

ggg

I am a humble servant of life I am great but not greater than great not smarter than life I no longer seek perfection I am perfect I  Have no need for change thou it is constant everyday is a celebration for me I have lived longer than too many I am in a state of constant victory I only cry for fun only to happily experience everything I am aware that is why I'm so happy

Your touch is never too much always the most is just enough through out the night just a hint of a feel delicate and so real hours go by I wake from dreaming of you I kiss your shoulder just once so slight you do not wake its  perfect its great you feel it and do not ,react deeper your sleep your so much more relaxed you awaken you smile you sigh deeply you stretch clench fists then go back and look deep into my eyes you stare and smirk holding hands left in right does not Matter our soul is light stay this beautiful day wink to that beautiful night 

how

ok thats it shifting gears no more love and sweetness its all greed and lies aint gonna look into your eyes no more just want to stick between your thighs what for I'm no longer good or god forbid great I'm just a whore bring it on get it on then I'll get out of your face and be gone I give up just want a fuck if I'm gone thats the only way I'm gonna shut the fuck up,hungry go buy some food I dont mean to be rude that would mean I cared a little bit about some shit I don't I am,need a ride call a cab not gonna take the time to waste a jab pretend to listen to your fuckin problems that endless blab,time out shut out get out purge my mind this cleche' is walking and looking the other way dont want to listen to this whine then don't listen go the fuck away

I need reason maybe its a different season that will do lookin for something else to believe in a new situation to ease into its not stress its jest a change of scenery no one has been mean to me gonna celabrate that I am still free to ride to the hills I have the will as well as the means to fufil the last of my dreams simple accessible usually possible no reason to stay and hide away gonna pack the bike light and when the moments right Gonna ride away gonna fly tonight

But its OK because I feel really good today gonna break out of the rut trying a different approach accepting what I can't change and looking at things a different way its OK to be a little cleche if it helps Me understand that life can be lived a better way another way start a new dance make it a trend take another chance make another friend its not a new beginning its not another end I feel really good today

Beer and cheese and cigarettes only me with painful regrets I was fine spending my time with water not wine and listening to you

Cause IM the old guy maybe I've seen more shit maybe I know a secret or am better equipped to help you get over it Just give me a try you don't have to cry alone at the least IM here for you always just pick up the phone and throw it at me I'll be right over there napping on the couch just don't hit me in the head ouch

Sometimes I want to yell but I don't sometimes I want to cry but I won't sometimes I just need to sigh yes that I do cause that one is easy and it just suits me usually I need a moment to catch my breath before I take on my next opponent before I take my next step that who has mistaken me as their next opportunity to get rich or richer they have no concience they don't need a rest just to catch their breath somehow feelings do not phase them its not part of their DNA but thats not me so the battle goes on I took my breath I'm ready for another day...

I was able to tap into her energy it gave me a renewed interest in me and life and curiosity I became suddenly unfrozen willing move about stand tall again and shout out make way IM OK its another day and there is more to do and there is more to say I have not seen it all although I claim I have IM not really sick of it or even full of it not even close not a bit move over bull shit cause IM not over it get out of my way...

Today I am aware this is it this is my life few surprises remaining the end of the rainbow now in view so over exaggerated I'm no longer confused about the meaning of life its only what you pretend it to be ,happiness merely an illusion created to calm the mind and limit the confusion generated by such a lack of understanding of most everything accepting ignorance is happiness Bliss that is it and I truly realize it today...

I caught just a glimpse of you there were people in the way it was a busy place at the busy time of day just a glimpse of you as people moved away but memories like photographs arn't real they just help us deal with lonlieness in our own private way only if I see you again then I can realize the meaning of the look in your eyes if they are sincere or full of lies I failed to notice only unaware if they looked away I only looked away so as to not stare I did not want to make you scared in any way I'm sorry I failed to notice I'm sorry I looked away...

Its still the smell I remember so well petuli oil like soft flowers smoothe and sweet lingering just enough to smoothe the rough reminds me of the touch when even our faces meet noses and feet those toes I could eat,lips touch its just too much hand in hands I feel you and still you feel me,too

I'm pure evil.Ha..Hey stranger I'm working tonight:) Wanna meet me at Murphies for a coke before you go in?Lol Deal :) thanks what would I do without ya?Lol.Don't listen to ur stuid daughterRemember the time your son thought they found bigfoot

3of 3/should could did do will it do,sometimes...always though I believe in you...Lol. Im miserably sick behind the bar. Barely know my own name. And what did that little shit say? LI feel like hellLol. Youre a trip. Shes gorgeous. It Wasnt hard. Did you like them though? Nah. I know you better. I as fucking with you.Are you drunk already? Lol. Youll know me :) and kristen is the most beautiful woman in the world, trust me, Ive been staring atLol. I know something was up. Im not that pretty. She is :)Haha. Youre a trip. Im trying to get tristan to clean his room so i can put him in bedLol! Sorry for causing you pain! HaHaha. I was just there for a few minutes. My flesh started to burnHaha. What oops shot?

1of2/I like to tell the interlecual jokes early in the show that way the dumb ones leave,Hey thanks for coming,don't foget to let the bus 

It is tonight I don't feel alright so I'll sit and write not of feelings but a lack of them I am patient I sit alone in the darkness waiting to see some revelation to be cast upon me clearly IM out of excuses I used the last one some years ago if things happen for a reason then does nothing happen for a reason too does it just happen because of a reason and on and on ramble down that worn out road no forks no twist or turns sure as hell can't see the beginning hope like hell I ain't near the end all I have are these words to help clue me in not sad I am a patient man I deny any regrets they're no good to me any more never smoked cigarettes cept maybe the candy brand it was all just candy back then trick and treat didn't see that coming we will all keep lying till we're all dead or dying keep denying we only failed for lack of trying too much passion too Much pain bury it deep inside its just a waste of time crying face down ain't no view keep your chin up look around eyes clear forward don't even look back because my friends we ain't just yet through... 

Sometimes I want to yell but I don't sometimes I want to cry but I won't sometimes I just need to sigh yes that I do cause that one is easy and it just suits me usually I  need a moment to catch my breath before I take on my next opponent before I take my next step that who has mistaken me as their next opportunity to get rich or richer they have no concience they don't need a rest just to catch their breath somehow feelings do not phase them its not part of their DNA but thats not me so the battle goes on I took my breath I'm ready for another day... 

Just got my first paycheck!! It means parents come n take their kids out to dinner n give them money n presents..U R all things!Being cause you keep screwing them upAre u a nerd?Hey happy v-dayThey caught me behind the counter again. I told them that I have a couponI have no one at my bar now.. Hill. TomorrowNo I m on the couchCiao ciao..Who told you that:-p :-p :-p good night..Hows ur lip?Lol only i would kno that u hide the last yodels in ur bureau..Lol. That sucks! Sorry. Good night babe :)..Ciao ciao..Okk!..You are talking is crazy I don't understand I hate McDonald's Go flyers ..forgot about lobster just made myself a lob sal sand for breakfast. thank you..Kk b there in 5..Thank you babe :)..LOL NICE!!Good night i love you..Security......you wait they are coming this time..Where is that from.....arby's?My minutes are sad because your minutes are sad because your minutes dog died. Please tell my minute..Lol. Fix it. Haha.. Keep up the good work..Never doubt me woman! Im always right..Asap. Is that you knocking on the door? Lol..Very fucking funny..Do you WANT me to hate you?..I luv my bracelet..I want to smack somebody. Lol ..Lol. Funny. Im fucking bored..Im bored out of my fucking mind..Ok but my question still stands..Hey its not my fault..Do you know what Youre doing?.Oh ok god use words..You suck..If at first you dont succeed- destroy all evidence of ever having failed.Why blowing the brains out?I tried to go to a pizza party but the pizza was all gone- typical of my pizza parties..Dead sick and poor.. I won my singles match! ..No. Im off working at a project :) lol. Dork..

 Lol. Ur the best terrriiiiii!!! Thk u soooo much!!

random

Dont need reaction just a little distractionto get back in the game or just back to the game Your expectation displaced what might have been just ing what was your reasoning appreciation for what was what were you think--ORIGINAL MSG: Rock,no I want crackAny adventures .vultures dentures imature go forward like before ...Vietnam vaterans,will we ever forget them or ever let them feel free about freedom....Bifocal bikers alumni from rikers metric rider dislikers same old joke to same old insiders ...Its just me and jonny cash gettin back to where we once came from,county prison and countyy jails showin wwhere the system is weak and faild...Gonnaa ride to the counttry gonna meet some old friends gonna lick my wound maybe just let them mend take a break maybe a dip in the lake...Which eventually led to his demise...He died hard noone was surprised still couldnt stop the tears from wellin up in our eyes he never hid hiis vices never wore a disguise...--ORIGINAL MSG: What?! Is that a yes or no ya freak!...Mo apoligies mo excuses jusst cause you didn't pick me doesn't make me useless...There ias a joint in which i frequent its a gathering of retured delinquents...Mathematical equations on the particle separation of ion differentiation...I do return though there no hope of seeing you again...My drunkle...Save the speeches and the teaching your bullshit satiracle opinions and your endless useless preaching...Dwindling spiraling theres no denying ...I want a dumb one so i can have some dumb fun...Sometimes i want i need i cant belive i persue i think of the angles then i doI sit alone by choice i shut off my phome domt need to hear no voice...Im not as tough as i was and aas stupid as i thought i used to be...I beg of yoiu your excellecy...--ORIGINAL MSG: 1. I would never call you a shithead 2. Wrath? Hahahaha i have none 3. You are the sweetest 4. Sorry...Possum hill kentucky...Sometimes i want i need i cant belive i persue i think of the angles then i do..But i guess not aall alone cause i came to this bar i could have stayed at home..--ORIGINAL MSG: Re stage *i did define you though I didnt know you were on a stage facing only one way existing alone..

Ha and ha then your a stupid face.i never made a meatball in my life i just assembled it and delivered it and denied myself it if only

to pherhaps regret it stupid face.if i ever do make a meatball it wont be for you lol punk...have a nice day<:o>

Really?

Like a picture I had once painted suddenly came to be came to life,came to me all the colors correct certain signs of intellect previous mysteries solved all problems resolved just me you life and fantasy together at last as well as it should be as I always knew it could be but of course alas it was not to be this much energy when it did collide could not coincide greatness residing with greatness seems to nullify one another eventual genocide fission or fusion it is awesome but it is brief only now a blurred memory perhaps just an illusion created by me...

Oh yea

I've had lovers sure there have been others but only one could kiss like no other maybe passion but thats not all it was like dancing in synchronization every move anticipated an opera of communication still mysteriously amazing it lasted all of two days perhaps that is crazy but its a memory that still thrills and confuses mystifies and uses me I recall it today that most mysterious encounter ever and how it instantly slipped away...

sucker Joe

I was stunned then she ran I couldn't understand how it got so quickley out of hand such extreme passion suddenly erased my exposed feelings disgraced again I the fool like most every man a bloody victim of evolution the intellectual human race it was amazing I still seek  the limit of perfection as with an erection then like ejaculation as quickly it all went away

You have a sexy face I want to fuck it with my tongue I want to cum in your ear I dont
want you to say oh God I want you to see God I want you to be God then scream your own name a hundred times once after each time you came your eyes 
thrill me I love your hair and your bite IM so glad to have met you you make goodness great and wrongness right ill write about this tomorrow if i can pretend to do it justice but of course I can not but I shall love to reminisce the first kiss the taste the smell of your hair the smooth of your face your squint your stare your irrisitable passion this sudden new reason to regain faith in what I used to believe in to behold this new full plate I just love your face...

It is tonight I don't feel alright so I'll sit and write not of feelings but a lack of them I am patient I sit alone in the darkness waiting to see some revelation to be cast upon me clearly IM out of excuses I used the last one some years ago if things happen for a reason then does nothing happen for a reason too does it just happen because of a reason and on and on ramble down that worn out road no forks no twist or turns sure as hell can't see the beginning hope like hell I ain't near the end all I have are these words to help clue me in not sad I am a patient man I deny any regrets they're no good to me any more never smoked cigarettes cept maybe the candy brand it was all just candy back then trick and treat didn't see that coming we will all keep lying till we're all dead or dying keep denying we only failed for lack of trying too much passion too
Much pain bury it deep inside its just a waste of time crying face down ain't no view keep your chin up look around eyes clear forward don't even look back because my friends we ain't just yet through...

before a long journey I like to say a little prayer to God which of course for me is Just looking in the mirror and winking, get to work people I gotta go play

Ride ride run fly free run and hide from your worries can't catch me borderline crazy totally free wave goodbye to me till I fade out of view you'll forget me but I'll remember you flying on the ground past cars trucks and trees wingless bird solo flying so low singing and screaming ear to ear smile white teethe beaming still believeing in Santa and the bunny and all questioning nothing riding free its the moment just the moment that I am completely me...

I didn't love you because I didn't know better I loved you because you are beautiful and true your soul and spirit so sincere the passion you give without fear so many souls touched by you they are not always aware that does not deter you ,you love you care I noticed, you showed me take it slow like sap from a wounded pine tree it expresses itself to the world eventually there is life all around I am so ready I love it all I don't know everything IM still not afraid I shall jump without warning without notice without fear I have everything to live for and I know its everywhere

Cause IM the old guy maybe I've seen more shit maybe I know a secret or am better equipped to help you get over it Just give me a try you don't have to cry alone at the least IM here for you always just pick up the phone and throw it at me I'll be right over there napping on the couch just don't hit me in the head ouch

I ate so much fruit on this diet when I farted I almost made a smoothie

Its not the size of your nose its the depth of your soul that keeps me interested in you and that you amuse me too a wealth of knowlege...so well read comes alives in things you said to me about me for me

Concrete thunder steering my emotions cant get out of the way from the truth rising up from the depth of any many oceans the pow

you punch the wow of your clutch the power of your touch swayed all my energy to you the truth is whatever I believe and I do believe whatever you tell me to you are my ocean all the energy the complete evolution I worship you and you consume me...

My daily wait is like daily grace a ritual that may seam worthwhile but the verdict is still unknown

shsh

Under cover lover there only maybe one there cannot be another meet me at the park the flowers are in bloom so peaceful at twilight we whisper after dark simple thoughts but we share them completely never holding back true feelings all out in the open only these meetings held discretely all witnesses unknown to mutual friends of each other cept maybe one there is no shame in love it only seems a game because thats what we allowed it to become we are from such different backgrounds and still we found each other so beautiful secret lovers

No reason to live not sure i will go on questioning everything feeling weaker than strong

flag

I need reason maybe its a different season that will do lookin for something else to believe in a new situation to ease into its not stress its jest a change of scenery no one has been mean to me gonna celabrate that I am still free to ride to the hills I have the will as well as the means to fufil the last of my dreams simple accessible usually possible no reason to stay and hide away gonna pack the bike light and when the moments right Gonna ride away gonna fly tonight

rise

You have a sexy face I want to f@ck it with my tongue I want to breath in your ear I dont
want you stop to say oh God, I want you to see God I want you to be God then scream your own name, a hundred times once after each time you came, your eyes
thrill me I love your hair and your bite I'm so glad to have met you, you make goodness great and wrongness right I will write about this tomorrow if I can pretend to do it justice, but of course I can not but I shall love to reminisce the first kiss the taste the smell of your hair the smooth of your face your squint your stare your irrisitable passion this sudden new reason to regain faith in what I used to believe in to behold this new full plate I just love your face...

Id like to rub your back in a bubble bath then kiss your cheeks both face and ass then shower you off till i hear you squeek and dry you with a thick towel and keep you warm and make you smile tuck you in and say goodnight then rub your feet till you melt away and drift to sleep then be available for you when you wake up have fresh coffee for your cup life so easy and free I'm so moved since I metyou cause now your supporting me now get to work bitch,and I'll have that stupid bath ready when you get home cause thats about all I got planned today!!!

I love her as my lover thou shes not the first there have been others im a multie track man with a one track mind im so into to her she is the kind that is patiient with my mind not real hard to find unless your looking Through the porthole of the universe move ahead then look back and see your life in reverse

You wont let me hold your hand its something i cant understand im not trying to be the controlling man maybe i just want you to steer me for awhile its just to get a suttle smirk not a wicked smile you know im not a jerk affecttion is just a part of me its just my style lend me a hand im not asking for it permanently just want to feel your pulse not trying to lead to something else its ok to kiss then look back and see your life in reverse your face a hug is always alright make it for just as long youll see it can be just as nice....

i would rather you hate me then just not love me

Still a flower in a field of grass 

Still still sill till my will to fufill what might bre right prob aint right too much noise still just human walking the earth dying and birthing playing dumb cause it comforts us drinking beer showing no fear pretending to care even thou we werent there such fun for a moment then faceing the opponent didnt run then there was no more fun knowing only in our hearts only in death will we be done

Still still still till my will to fufill what might be right probably aint right too much noise still just human walking the earth dying and birthing playing dumb straight out of the womb because it comforts us ,drinking beer showing no fear pretending to care even thou we werent there such fun for a moment then faceing the opponent didnt run then there was no more fun knowing only in our hearts only in death will we be done

whew

Now whatever I write sounds like I'm talking about you thou you are a burning inspiration to me its not always true,I remember you as an attractive woman beautiful eyes sincere in appearance and interesting to talk and listen to, It was a moving moment and I was grateful but you performed your disappearance it it seamed only fitting and normal not unexpected or frightful,we did keep an awareness it was right to keep up appearance surely only we understood the difference,then reaquainted by surprise,I nearly fainted I must admit I was delighted my sences and mystisism heightened I seized the moment and took to writing I try without trying to to let emotions keep flowing with words to share with strangers and to share with you...

damn

Quick it happens like that your not always ready but you have the experience sometimes you think your just delirious sometimes it makes you furious its always sometimes obvious its time to get oblivious let the time go by question why hell no like there is a reason ,there ain't you cant reason your way to an answer the ransom wont be paid nobody sent a note nobody knows nobody cares I am sometimes scared but fear keeps you alive for that sometimes when just as surprised life smooths out the road your on you laugh a little definitely smile then hit cruise control and just enjoy it all for a while enjoy the ride...

prominant

I love your nose it knows how to kiss my nose so corny so cute we do it like Eskimos now I know what they are talking about when I want excitement I take my nose and just whip it out right there for all to see us rubbing noses shamelessly live and learn size does matter olfactory sensory so sensitive to smell a flower so beautiful so sweet home cooked food such love and that attraction to you the mind is great the nose is greater looking down it never at you raise it to high in the air showing no fear go to where it leads you nuzzle it with me and I'll share mine with you...

Olfactory

Yesterdays smell of cigarette smoke and perfume and sweat infused into my shirt I smell it strongly it is the smell of you and the memory of yesterday it smells of passion distasteful to others perhaps,disgraceful to mothers probably but it is medecine to me soothing comforting like a warm fire on a winter night or your arms around me tight pure delight so strong I still long for a feeling both right and wrong depending on who is singing the song I'm singing this song so beautiful to you more beautiful to me I do recall most if not all that you said to me it was amusing and somehow soothing always interesting thank you for nothing but you are responsible for my inspiration for this time maybe just yesterday maybe tommorro maybe next week surely always in some way things I try to say feelings I try to convey and secrets that I speak that I refuse to keep, again I smell my shirt then kiss the sky goodnight and drift away with a smile on my face to the usual sleepy place relaxed enthused alive sleep now then later wake...

holiday

I'm flying at thirty thousand feet to myself denying what this really means sitting here with coke in a cup the screen telling me im travelling at some crazy speed of course nobody believes such sillyness nobody would have the willingness to perform such feats temperature outside would freeze together your cheeks but I sit in here without fear sipping on my coke tapping out this joke just as warm as toast listening now to radiohead never understand what is said but maybe i like it that way just tap my feet recline my seat beg for more penuts to eat then hopefully drift away....

Back to L.A.

Too much time since we walked the beach in venice listened to the preachers preach the gospel of the freaks the barkers and the tumblers skateboad lovers and the other lovers we all discovered what we needed to know about ourselves and each other I must go back someday with you or without I need to see it both ways I hope its a sunday thats your day I like to think it as my day too,memories of deep sand seeing you in your element such happieness on your face I have the pictures I have the proof,this new age sound in my head so soothing tames my emotions so I may see them they are not always visable to me then they are there all too clear they sneak up on me and somtimes I'm just not all that ready but I inhale then exhale then I become steady on my feet eager to greet the past and fuse it with the present,making the fantasy the real thing enjoying the rush of feeling and the emotion it brings welcome back my friend welcome back...

Prominent

I love your nose it knows how to kiss my nose so corny so cute we do it like Eskimos now I know what they are talking about when I want excitement I take my nose and just whip it out right there for all to see us rubbing noses shamelessly live and learn size does matter olfactory sensory so sensitive to smell a flower so beautiful so sweet home cooked food such love and that attraction to you the mind is great the nose is greater looking down it never at you raise it to high in the air showing no fear go to where it leads you nuzzle it with me and I'll share mine with you...

Yes

I love you I love you I do I love you I love you I love you

please

Life is brief and the reaper is the thief who knows we are weak and cant stop what is to ultimately be but for awhile at least we can hold hands and be aware of each others stare and love it deeply before we disappear,there is never enough time but there is so much time to share with each other it doubles when we are together I share mine with you and you share your time with me even in our minds and our hearts our time multiplies come live longer with me

Ottoman Empire slap

I know you were comfortable with pretend I'm sorry I am the one who has to tell you it it must end its not that it was all unreal its just that it was mostly so untrue you had not achieved respectable status you were kidding yourself so you were glad that thing remained stagnant or status quo now I must bring you back with a little reality check a little reality slap in the spiritual face I have missed you on earth while you were traveling in space i know its gonna burn when you learn you haven't grown much since you lost touch with things that make thinking people blush welcome back,slap

The deep grass shields the tiny flowers of summer the breeze carries the last pollen of the season to its waiting destination the children are back in school and seams like forever I wait for the latest reason to believe in why I should wait for you ,the grass I now cut back the rains are so much ,vines hang from the trees the sun lowers to please the the creepers amongst the leaves lizards birds and frogs squirrels birds and raccoon summer dwindles for some too soon but for me right on time I don't see the line that separates one time from the other I do thou notice the weather subtle in its ways shadows growing longer with the shortening of days the brightest colors begin to fade flowers seek to sleep thou the oaks choose to stay another year another day...

Cosmos

The universe a diverse collection of energy that makes no apology for the state that it is in I too am a result of energy infused into the galaxy and the energy is increased when your energy is within proximity of me this does not confuse me it excites me my mind is enlightened my awareness is heightened my soul becomes frightened with nervous energy soaring through the plane of cosmic ionic delight,such energy will dissipate when your energy separates from me until then I will pretend that I am calm and in control of my energy but of course I am not dot dot dot...

The truth of youth often ignored we've grown bored cause we think we have heard it all before thou we are not sure so why listen dont want to be wrong dont want to rekindle care wont open old can of old fears remain unaware uninterested who needs that,just a pat on the back will get us by,listen but pay no attention to what I also say I am not young so I don't preach fun always some warning paranoid disposition so now who do or will or even should you listen to? your mother ha exaggerations and fiction the devout of whatever that makes me shutter maybe me, oh please we'll just let that be,your heart maybe it just cries like a baby and all those feelings just gonna make you crazy so I guess just listen to no one wait for some divine inspiration but remember some attention is required...

We have become a symbiotic relationship where as I depend on you for the survival of me,its is evolution that made us this way,I have grown unacceptably lazy in what you do for me and you to lazy in the tasks I perform for you,paper work for me?I don't think so change the oil for you,ha not in this lifetime,it seems to work like the birds on the rhinos back or plastic covered couches,neither at their fullest potential but a way to share a load disperse the pressure, humor each other share the insanity,scratch my back,rub your feet it is a way to complete what nature otherwise forgot to evolve this situation can resolve but it is handy if it does not...

I know your afraid well thats OK you may live with some fear and I will still be here distracting you from lifestyle wish you dread so cause I'm not the boss of you and you too are not the boss of me I love listening to you when you tell me you don't need anybody to listen I just smile and you smile back we do laugh and thats how we distract each other from the fact that we are together and life is just as simple as that,I think I understand,"life is what happens to you while your busy making other plans"

Who do they think they are trying to tell me who they think I am,obviously they can not understand the reasons I do the things I do why I say what I say the multitude of small setbacks I have faced along the way,they are quick to judge then when the truth is revealed they just as quick look the other way,their ego makes me look humble and reasonable they try to believe they are better than me to try to scare me away,I present no challenge for they do not interest me,their voices sound so petty perhaps they are jealous by my lack of concern interest or respect I only present them with the neglect that they have never experienced before they are left to stare at the door that has closed in their face they are important no more they just occupy space, judging me is a waste of time,yours not mine...

Hold

I do miss the banter the silly texts and e mails these memories still do inspire me they never make me sad I never felt a fool for doing everything I could for you,a lifetime of memories and you are still on my mind daily there are so few who do inspire me the way you do its all not a mystery to me it all still makes me happy fortunate and lucky there was no surprise when there was no prize that I could hold in my hand it was the look in your eyes that had me understand the meaning of win, the meaning of life,you often thanked me now I will thank you just for who you are and for many small things that you did do,thank you...

Its alway un expected out of the blue still here i am with you so many twists and turns so many tists and urns laughfter only gets me down ,thats not meant to be cliche' or to demand a frown its always the way before I get around I love you one two three love is not a big deal just a little something something between you and me,the smell of death the smell of lifedown to the water its always right to be wrong about somethings as long as you tried found that little something special that ling3ered inside yor soul like when you smokeda bowl but now your to old so you lash out and give a partial shout about what lifes all about still you don't give a crap and its alla backhanded slap in your fucking face your still in the race to nowhere where none wins and you wish it was the begining thou you fo

Regrets none disappointments somerevelatios maybe one classic study in human observation equels the sum.all gathered and found some 

comfort back to a place where they are still loved despite their shortcomings their handicaps go un acknowledged at least for today long lost childdren return as adults to act like children to be their old selves to see how they fared through so many years to compare success and failure wih their peers this reunion sometimes simplifies some confusion about life and ageing rearanging priorities

When i need too feel alive just got get out and ride I ll tell you my destination maybe an hour after i arrive gonna find some new tall tales covered in little white lies it a freedom and a luxury its only my gaudian angel and me,north maybe south only the bike knows I just follow, many miles a couple of days maybe Ill text you day after tomorro got to be, gonna be free just takin a ride my angel,curiosity and me...

I LISTENED to all your concerns and your stories about your daily struggles and worries even from time to time there were the occasional puch lines just to break it up I listen as best I can thou I don't always understand your reasoning sometimes i think you say crazy things just to see if I'm listening just to see my reaction and figure if I'm graspin what ever the hell it is your sayin,but there is no prize listening to your alibis it wont even make me wise but I love it anyway I need a dose every day it makes me strong when you go on and on about what went wrong today so go on I still long to hear what you have

to say... 

Deny yourself a litlle self sacrifice show some appreciation give libation daily bow to the east seek the relief from from the many

facets of your life

Im not afraid im just admiring,hesitation just slows me down,precision is just a illusion

I gave up i gave in i surrrendered years ago i was a successful failure it came easy for me easier than most

I dont know whats with prunes it was a plum and the when it is dries it undergoes some evil transformation like im gonna get you for

stealing my moisture then it goes through you taking your moisture and pretty much everything else with it evil damn plum

I like to tell the interlecual jokes early in the show that way the dumb ones leave,Hey thanks for coming,don't foget to let the bus

come to a full stop before you get on...walk carefully now...

Your asshole may look like a daisy but you didnt have to name it daisy oh you thought i was gonna say doesnt smell like a daisy well

how would i know that...

For me sex was just for recreation,I really find raising children relaxing

My insurance salesman said for just a little money i could buy peace of mind I of course told him I was saving up a lot of money for

a piece of ass

I told that joke the other night and a girl farted such a compliment thats a comediens dream to have people leave covered in their own filth

Well the truth of the matter is those people who left earlier were actually the smart ones they dont ride the bus hell they drive the

 damn bus and i think one even owns the bus, thanks and good night and dont forget to let the bus stop completely before you get on ,on your way home...

Theres still so many things I want to say to you I dont need to I just want to they are such old lines Ive practiced saying them a

thousand times yet some how they are new they still do ring true you dont need to hear them still you are kind you convinse me you dont mind I pretend to believe it then we laugh its a good despite the outcome its still fun to be young or at least aware your not deceased you feal the care your energy released into the air you are now gone yet somehow you are still there...

I miss the pain that controlled me i miss the the life where i felt so free to be excited about life with you fantastic unrealistic possibilities that guided my actions and ambitions with persuations that drew you to me i remember it never dwell on it broke the spell then fell from your grace lost touch with your presence miss the flavor of your face haunting taunting the passion remains

I miss the pain that cotrolled me i miss the the life where i felt so free to be excited about life with you fantastic unrealistic doing,sometimes i think of dumb diddies such as this I really don't mean too but sometimes I do then I think what should I do can I do Sometimes I miss you ,sometimes I think of you, sometimes I don't ,sometimes I do wonder what are you doing ,how are you

This tempoary insanity has become my temporary reality I plead the fifth then grab a fifth and go on a fishing trip and try to get over it but I'm not very well equipped to handle it,still waiting for a punch line I hope it arrives in a nick of time to help me feel so fine before I lose my feeble mind and free myself from the little bind I seem to have got myself in,you lose I lose,so who wins?

The Game.Im not giving up i refuse to give in i love playing this game even if i dont win the prize, just the look in your eyes the look of surprise when you still see my face when you sleep at night and during the week when you cannot sleep, im not a winner beginner just a fun loving seeker who will share my only inner frustrations with you...

You cant capture a butterfly and you cant own freedom

There was no defining moment it is all just a moment i never wrote you a song just this diary entry lala haha just happy words with no real meaning there was no real beginning which means there can not be an end we are not really lovers just loving friends no rules no
regrets no worries no pain well not yet anyway but that to will be okay if it aint broke just as well keep it that way see you

tomorro I saw you today..

Theres still so many things I want to say to you I dont need to I just want to they are such old lines Ive practiced saying them athousand times yet some how they are new they still do ring true you dont need to hear them still you are kind you convinse me you dont mind I pretend to believe it then we laugh its a good despite the outcome its still fun to be young or at least aware your notdeceased you feal the care your energy released into the air you are now gone yet somehow you are still there...

Whoa

Suddenly passion is back in fashion now its all the rave,people buying flowers not just because they are on sale but because someone wants to share some beauty a slight fragrance slow down the ride that is going so fast joining the past with the now completing the why with the how when things are slower its easier to understand the many small reasons why we have so many demands from each other just looking for appreciation for who we think we

Stunned? not really just seem another shame ,sad?maybe just a little thou I barely knew her name,scared ?no death is always looming nearby ,sorry I out lived another one it just seem they chose to die,sometimes its was fun ,not anymore its done ,no need for any reasons anymore I pretend I have a purpose thats what I live for,won't judge,still might cry never a question whos answer I'm looking for why?No no no never a question for why...