tymes

Ok goofy why not your cute and sweet thats a lie I repeat thats a lie your not sweet but well gosh thats swell I thought you died and went to hell thats not a lie I would've cried if well if I cared and feared death was coming for me  but you apparently didn't die and I guess I didn't too,one two three dr,seuss was on the loose should have ,when I had the chance put his head in a noose what rhymes with goose you silly moose oh this is tough hes a total genius but I've had enough of the one two three waltz scheme and I think he was missing a penis, oh you see me out of time,if a mime could rhyme I'd give him a dime for every sentence he would say on his way to the unemployment line oh thats just silly well thats just fine go ahead and try it its as easy as one two three first the girls now the boys wait,now just me...

when

Well wow whats going on haven't seen you around lately,I can only imagine the day to day world you live in, typical problems and choices weaknesses and vices, occasional delights I think of you and about you from time to time .I always miss you a little bit ,if I said I didn't I'd be lying well just a little not what ever I meant to do.Do gone on, well I shall, there were times when when we saw too much of each other as friends but now those times are quite gone and maybe its time to bring up the average,maybe see each other over lunch ,maybe hug hello then hug see you later maybe once a week but at least once again. I do miss you and the time we spent ,arguments that was the best I could go for another, I'm sure we could think of something if we just found the time,It usually started with a bottle of wine,a relevant topic and again time,I never told you but you were usually right but I did not care about that, it was the passion of the moment the exaggerated lines I would toss at you to get you going,the quick useless rebuttals got that exact passion flowing,such fun back then together drinking, when we were worthy friends... 

just a joke

You know when you leave the bar you want to be cautious, then you get in your car and peter frampton  comes on and you think its some kind of diplomatic immunity as long as you turn it up so even if yo get pulled over you just say its peter frampton for god sakes, saying for god sakes more immunity.Thats what police look for is people singing in their car on the way home from the bar but officer its peter frampton for god sakes then the cop says get out of here your to drunk to talk too. Hey some people don't like talking to drunks fortunately he was one of them, but I think he got the whole peter frampton thing even though he was a young punk anyway.My father said to me you know your old when the cops seem like kids, I'm old he did and i was on my way,they look like kids and think their all that ooh look at you with your gun and bullet proof vest,big man. ha damn kids,for god sakes...

Living a dream on a slot machine,going to vegas I'm feeling courageous gonna make a donation of a years worth of wages thats right your money stays in vegas along with the story how you lost it all the amazing rise to riches followed by the usual drunken tough guy fall let it ride the chant of the fool give me a free drink make me look pretty cool credit cards atm just this one time I got friends just a couple more spins you know I'm do .I'm bound to win after all I've been through last hand last call glad I prepaid my plane ticket I can get a ride just can't tell everybody I'm broke I got my pride,and had such a great time,Now just another thirty years to pay it off I'll be back I'm not entirely through...

I remember driving in your big comfortable car you sitting by my side so relaxing and beautiful your hand in mine ,like sitting on a comfy sofa watching a movie.The movie playing was the dark winding road.We drove around the reflecting lake we drove pretty slow didn't want to rush this moment but then poof where did it go,it has long since vanished now just a perfect beautiful memory stored in my mind, that loves to say hello from time to time...

I remember when i realized how great was that song seems like so long ago mostly because it was ha made the hair on the back of my neck stand up,driving in NY near JFK on the cargo road I think driving home after a long day just me in my exp cranberry red not a half bad radio I forget the exact rock station but on it played I found myself turning up the volume and didn't need to wonder for long why or what is it about this song that made me yell hell ya I want to tell you wow but that was long ago in a dark car at night when it was ok to be alright and play the radio loud...

Mystery solved,problem gone,headaches a faded memory root cause still unknown shadow boxing just a fad ,shadows gone sun to follow no need to preach they don't speak the language anyway,conflicts all resolved,amazing ?Not really,seemed it was bound to happen sooner or later,the killer was invited to dinner he put down his guns stayed for ice cream didn't want to seem rude figured it was better that way,its abstinence that inspires the mind and soul, ones will can easily fill ones needs on a daily basis to be happy and feel utterly free from guilt and anxiety life becomes easy if you want it to be...

Well hello my old friend ,its been so long I don't know where to begin,the children all grown and gone it all has passed by so quickly it almost seems wrong,and I'm sure your kids too have found more interesting places to be than to hang on to you,ha funny for real,got to run love to see you we will catch up it will be fun...

always

My life is nearly half over and I don't feel I'm anywhere near halfway to my fated slated destination I try but theres so much distraction I spew nonsense just to git that knee jerk reaction but sometimes its just comes out a jerk,but i have little regrets its just something like teretts it just comes out right or wrong short or long I've been damned and thrown out ask to leave and shown the door always claim,whatever for? But I know don't really care won't really grow,get over it I am,got the only other call back on the velvet rope tour,they might have shown me the door but then I would have escaped gone to the authorities and reported rape of my mind simplest brain washing you'll ever find,that day is long gone,grade school where I was first made the fool high school there were a few only humor got me in trouble and yet kept me sane,and got me through..

You were not handed a silver screen not served on the proverbial platter one must love for love thats all that matters something about be true to ones self that expression gathers little dust on the shelf it is a reference used and shared repeatedly compared to weary travelers such as you

most

I don't have your voice I cant sing what I have to say and even if I did I'm not sure I would want it that way you still need some luck to get your word out and hope people sympathize and and know what it is you just might be talking about ,I shared my fears but if they are so dissimilar to any others then probably no one cares anyway, might try singing or somehow bringing life to something maybe I learned I hope to share with some young ones some day,but I'm too lazy to fail and its a surer bet this way...

Forever

I won't lie I'm not sure if I was supposed to be slap happy content moved or sly, I only know it was moving touching beautiful and I cried. It reminds me we're all older moved on ,our world has changed Now I realized what a wonder it all was when I was younger too even thou I'm a bit older than you ,thanks for inviting me along in that awesome heartfelt gut wrenching song I didn't want to go like you apparently did,you tricked me with your siren voice and that seemed a little cruel to me,but I went and it was sad and beautiful and I cried real tears from both eyes ,thats been awhile and me the know it all is not really sure why, down the road,down the road...

ME

I will stay away I never knew how to or was even willing to play with the likes of you so prissy prim and proper never get your nails dirty never accept my offer to teach you something new your always so content with all the same projects that you do such a pity for me at least,you treat me like I have some kind of disease you shun me I was never smart enough for you scholastics and academics never my forte' mostly its just opinions that get in the way,I still respect you never expected to get through because I too am arrogant, a snob of sorts our childish banter often goes back and forth a tie vote has no winners and no submission is often losers finally we part way perfectly equal no rematch no love story of course no sequel

Why the earth and the sky are nothing without the oceans and sea the amazing ability to cleanse and heal rejuvenate the innermost soul and change the way that you feel about life in general I don't know if its the salt mineral or the conductive energy of the tremendous amount of life that it contains its so soothing calming, amazing it holds you like the helpless child you truly are some people have been taken away as some type of forced sacrifice it gives then it takes a life occasionally shamelessly painlessly except for the pain of the survivors the storytellers and some liars,it lifts you then controls you pushes and throws you we temp the ocean we temp fate it then expels us we drudge to the shore fighting the tides sometimes taking a ride on the power and force this source of energy this cradle of life...

Again I lye dormant like a reptile in winters mud you were my sun that energized me now you are none I'm barely coherent I lie in bed most of the day,always try to blame my schedule and how I prefer it this way but I'm just trying to cope stop the crying and float to the top where there is again life and possibly hope for future contentment,improved quality of life and slowly lose the resentment that has contained me in this muck like state of reality...

Did you ever want to chat with a brat maybe give her a smack in the back of a Cadillac then get hit with a verbal attack and hope one day you will get all you missed then get it all back then you admit that you were pissed and suddenly all the bruises were kissed and you were healed and it was all very real and you now had all that you thought that you lacked,suddenly unlocked all you craziest thoughts then threw them away set you free no more feeling guilty for not doing what you should have done or would have done if you weren't so young and so innocently dumb,all regrets erased start off with a fresh slate,afforded the second chance and its not to late...well did ya?

split

breathless and beautiful. A divided soul delivers a heavy blow without bullets or steel....haunting me just a belief yet painfully real,beauty too is not real just something I believe that to others is not true,faith only skin deep can be cut away abraded, torn off and burned for fuel, burned for relief, my faith is fading it was never meant to last forever, my thoughts growing cold my beliefs less deep my ambitions less bold,my soul too has been made and has played the fool,somewhat changing,fading,searching seldom seen,transparent thou still real,ready to soar, one half is older tired yet content and the other half still ready for more...

keep

Stop being afraid,get the gun out of my face,its always fear that pulls the trigger ,its all such a waste of time running and hiding never been law abiding doing things I ought not to do, being weird when everyone else ain't got a clue now its just fear and its not of you or what you've turned into,a punk a killer a thrill seeker a will breaker trouble maker last chance deal breaker,what a shame I'm just sayin you shouldn't have changed shouldn't have stopped prayin and now your just playin with time you don't have lacking will for survival its appears to be a total loss of salvation redemption now your just a collection of regrets and innuendos, empty threats jokes with no punchlines no cause no reason...

Vanished with out a trace,she left no clues telling me why thats why I was not sure if it was something dumb I had done, I'm thinking probably but I'm still not sure,of the exact reason. She had left before,but did come back I felt under attack from guilt and unsure feelings there often seemed no reason for the glares she was giving at awkward times like when friends were visiting and the children were lifting their voices in laughter,I'm not sure what reaction she was after but I think I'm sure,I tried them all,never knew which worked for what but I hung in there and gave it all I got I guess to no avail and no definite conclusion, now this disappearance just adds more question to the still growing confusion ,but now that shes gone I'm quite certain I'll be just fine and easily get along...adios bitch and so long...

go

Stop being afraid..stop running away,these bad times won't last forever ,it will be better or worse one day,get out of your room get out of the house there is no life indoors just stillness then death,thats what you should be aware of, even a little afraid of,let fear create a cause to get you to the real safe place in the real world, not on the streets but in the country where pebbles lay dormant and life is there to see,stop being afraid of being free...

For me

Summer ,warmth and ease of living slow and mellow in no rush to go anywhere too stressful lacking in interest or uneventful,cold beer sweaty bottles wet coozies aware of life at the fullest, cruzing at half throttle just take a ride along the shore no need to hurry smell the salty, air watch out for the cage dwellers on their phones to nowhere ,past parked cars, girls in bikinis yea theres no rush lovein the scenery,hot sun ,families holding hands flip flop slapping sticky gum, tan crazy legs hanging off skinny white bums, when slow easy living is fast summer fun,past the strip twist the throttle get a grip on the feeling of freedom what ever you may become you can always go back to the simple ways of summer days slightly tinted by that halo haze,rubber side down...

It was so long ago ,only for that moment you past my mothers house, you were quiet at the time, young and beautiful confident and strong,that memory lives on,and now there you are,older bolder still confident or thats what I perceive by what you post, and the things that you say,so many years what you've done I have no idea ,people you've met I see sadness in some of your expressions,I'm sure it has not been all easy for you. I never knew you and still I remember,the pictures helped some .Maybe the story of your life is too different from what I would have imagined it to be,maybe better maybe worse,I am a little hesitant to learn the truth its ok to keep your peace from me I shall just pass you by maybe glance into your eye or watch you look away maybe it'll be okay...

Cleared out cleaned out left it all behind feel so refreshed forgot what a clean slate felt like so wrapped up in the pace lost focus on the child inside so free no cares just run with out a thought,just run wild, brought me back to the place where peace of mind is where it all begins and it where it all ends so don't forget when the engine starts up again make sure to put it into neutral every once in awhile,and reverse is the best,back to simplicity,authenticity good old fashion reality,

Tides come in and tides go out but your love will always rise in my eyes the joy and love we share you just can not compare each moment spent is like a pray so deep and meaningful,each new step we walk surpasses the last stroll we shared the joy and laughter makes it all worthwhile so let us move on to see what the future holds,all footprints fade eventually,we shall make them fresh every day,two sets always,to the sea then back to the dunes,years long, as long as we can,as long as we remain strong,able,and aware,two sets no regrets...

such

I feel no pain yet still I am alone,just waiting for a reply,to my recent question as to why you just went away,no warning or explanation,of course you owe me nothing, still I wonder ,I choke on my tears sit uncomfortable with same old fears ,I know and I am fully aware that I am ultimately strong and need not long for love or assistance from anyone including you,yet still I sit with no regret and no logical reasons and even less to believe in, alone except for these demons that are truly my only true friends...

HOH

Oh please carry me away, ocean carry me away, you're my better half,you cooled me when I was overheated ,you inspired me when I felt defeated,you showed me a vastness that I can never fully appreciate,still I hesitate to plunge into your darkness which holds mysteries barely known to any you are so beautiful when its sunny and quite magnificent with your waves crashing high on the rocks when it rains, yet thats all I can do,sit and stare and wonder and you are never the same always changing and of course you are always there for me waiting patiently for me to make my move if only to prove to myself that I have the courage strength and desire to go forth to cross you and connect with the rest of the people of this great planet which is mostly you...

quest

I've got too much going on in my head. I feel like I'm in one of those rooms that has like 15 open doors. I need to start going in those doors. I need to start my game. I need, I need. I want..I....Selfishness is a blessing. Confusion is an infection. Someone help me,I am self righteous I know my direction I am choosing any door I am not afraid I do not need protection against the unknown,the not yet seen my uneducated selection this is what I live for it is what is meant to be I have no more word till I enter that door,words without experience are lies to me...

vow

Don't worry. I won't break this. Ill keep it safe forever, if you give me the chance to keep it safe.You just go on about your business,I will make everything right again between us,I will keep this secret promise we have as an assurance that we will always respect each other whether we want to or not,this secret sacred pack this never ending bond,between me and you,this mutual willingness, with this aspect there are never regrets,I love you...

rub a dub dub dub

www wicked weird world when it comes to sick sex i haven't even got to first base yet,and I stress the word yet,I'm learning a lot about how the human body works and how far you can stretch various orifices,I.m learning about fornication flatuation masturbation urination deification penetration deviation degradation all the shuns yes quite a learning experience and no matter what your looking up sooner or later your looking at something weird and naked and by weird and naked I mean educational and interesting,let me see Bibles for first holy communion eight minutes later I'm looking at three girls and some kind of farm animal,and the funny thing is I think one of them was holding a bible,
um hosepower for a 1992 corvette somehow turns into a girl in a bikini then then old woman in russia milking their breasts,and the problem is I don't fight it no resistance what so ever I play dumb oh I wonder what that means and where its going?dah oops same place as the other day what a coincidence ..If you laugh at this you've been tricked once or twice too...

I'll bring blood to your ears and tears to your yes and put a sour look on that puss,I'll hurt you badly then leave you to die...

wid

At last its night finally darkness time to write start that fight in my head throw rocks at my soul make it all flow out out of my fingers sometime a few zingers come to mind mostly ramble you know what I do I don't control it I just let it go don't blame me it just writes itself I just throw the coals on the fire and watch it go

I took a breath got a little choked up I could not believe what was going on around me there were people dying and babies crying and some others lying about the state of things,I just sat and stared almost unaware for so long that all this was going on under my nose it was a sweet scene super imposed on what I normally see there was hatred this still confuses me there was violence sometimes I can see how this would affect me such lack of love I 'm at a loss can't understand logically its got to cost the people and their livelihood and the lazy no good doers ain't never done what they should to even succeed for their own family they have no clue ain't never done nothing worth doing what they do I am helpless in this mess ,have nothing or nobody left to bless its a disgrace and somewhat of a shame there are no rules and no winners in this game I'll go along accept theres nothing much I can do one day it will be over for me it will be over for you,can't change anything in other peoples minds can't explain other thing just try to be kind I'll do my best for you but can make no promises of what other will do to you,I wish you the best I will take a rest and wait for the outcome the remainder of the total sum of the damage the disaster the pain all in all the strength of the strong shall remain...

dare

Go ahead look me in the eye,don't be afraid,I won't make you cry what is it that you see is it my soul can you see how shallow I can be,I mean well always wish the best for you who may know me or listen to me when I seldom make much sense when I seldom believe what anybody may share with me take no offense I just don't understand always what may be easy for you is a nightmare for me so again please look me in the eye and tell to me what do you really believe you see

feeling

I was born a fool early on went to school a fool hung with fools started a club for wayward fools fooled most the fools I ever worked for fooled myself most of the time taught by fools ridiculed by fools felt fear from failures for fools found on flat freakin ground floundered around till i found famous fabulous fantastic fortunate fantasy fools ,was never to cool to be the fool who found life with you so final and full face it now nothing left to force me to finally be the mis fortunate fool for you forgone I'm gone...

we are dancer floating far,climbing rocks finding stars,deep light follows tell us tales through our shadows,reckless free form delight wisp away the night our fantasy our life...

Fla.

Stopped while crossing the swamp could hear the gaters grunt and bellow,some sort of midnight banter some sort of hello come closer if you dare some unafraid others unaware of the potential danger that accompanies the soft and mellow wading of the keeper of the swamp,extremely quick they give a kick with a tail latch on to your arm roll rip it off its permanent harm that leads to death and dismemberment never pretty but pretty permanent consumes all parts digestion so efficient life sustaining accomplishment,no minor adjustment required perfect evolution near perfect answer near perfect solution to surviving sustaining and living and thriving...

Me

read me

feed me

bleed me

freed me

seed me

answer me

cancer me

dancer me

bill me

will me

thrill me

kill me

summer grunge

Smells like a carnival,fried dough popcorn something sweet,and adolescent perfume,with just a hint of deet,still hear crickets over mechanical wheels distorted pa music girls giggle and children screams,theres a happy couple walking hand in hand together they have a full set of teethe ain't it grand,matching concert shirts from different bands dirty sneakers blaring speakers unshaven barkers hustling the patrons eating more of that godforsaken sugar sweetened soft serve with that mushy cone should have gotten the blue colored slush traded a mess for a brief refreshing headache, luke warm beer in vomit inducing plastic cups mosquito bites on my arm the fun times of summer sure to harm the future of the children finnally after you filled them with flat coke and stale licorice half eaten hot dogs smothered in bacteria relish,ha now can you smell it...

cmon

who is watching the baby,who is hoping that maybe she is ok just some passing phase it will all work out it will be all the way it should and could be but seriously who is watching the baby today is it you or is it me...

temple

Its the place where I was baptized the place where I realized that there are not freaks and geeks just people who seek an opportunity to live express and give their talents and beliefs a chance to shine down on Venice beach it was to me within reach yet it seemed fleeting and brief just one hug a half dozen shrugs so much scenery to love one push maybe a shove paintings artists con and paint,players and actors some unsuccessful most unforgettable workers and worshipers health conscious unconscious skaters and haters converge to emerge maybe a little more tolerant of each others apparent needs and present dreams,survival surveillance of people in a trance some do their dance all look for some crumbs attention and love I tasted the water there it was as salty and fresh as anywhere else in the world I have no regrets...

done

Questions still more questions ,cute innuendos and silly rhymes is anybody done talking ha certainly not me cant stop obsessing yaking hoping listening then choking sinking floating who know who cares just for a minute stop sharing your fear and feelings and bullshit believing self examination rambling frustration dont care what you wear what you shouldhave done when you had the chance when you were young some lame battle turned into some lame idea a sorry ass exuse well excuse me for stopping here didnt mean to bother you upset hand out free tickets get you all wet with my dim wit spit in your face drag you down to a lower place with my bad jokes my sad stories my lack of concern about my lack of worries i have failed and now your a witness this distress will surely finish our ties no more laughs stories posts blurry pictures stress regrets apologies so now I guess I'm done I guess I'm sorry...

da four

The water never flows up a hill,the answers always follow the question,but not always,seldom do we understand what we see or the reasoning any of this is happening to me,occasionally eventually the revelation is shared with me,or you or whoever might be listening,sometime theres no time to notice,it all happens so quickly,it may elude me or you, we can only try to reminisce then review and discuss the moments we missed ,some opportunities that passed us by,some tragedies that left us to cry, maybe alone or with close friends now even the beginning is a blur when we were lucid we were bright and cared a little more about our future life,when we finally reach the end nature will sneak up on us we will melt back into the universe we will live forever in the past, including this holiday try to be aware just for today...