New year?

Stranger things have occurred,stranger than even me.The ever present past that remains all too clear to see.Do you remember when,no you weren't there ,in fact I was alone except for a few friends,I sometimes bend the truth a little some mistakes you can not mend.You try to pay restitution but this only adds confusion to the sometimes lies and alibis you've been using.Try to not look back,only look forward and try to attack the right things the future may hold and only fate can bring.Don't look back...

Your Season

Its a big game and there are no timeouts remaining there have been a lot of injuries there aren't many players left. I'm still in the game but my knees are shot. I can't run full speed but I can still catch a pass like the last pass that I caught.Everybody tries but nobody can stop the clock.The QB calls the hail Mary play but it never works anymore.It is cold out,the water has turned to ice,those on the sidelines aren't even watching ,they don't care that they are losing the game, it seems this game means nothing anymore, theres little fun had by anyone, the refs are all in prison, the bookies made their money,the spectators have been given, money for their livin' .The coaches look grim,they took the heat for the losing season, they have run out of excuses, they have run out of reasons.They all may be fired,the oldest retired.The youngest stays on he still has desire.The buzzer sounds ,all cross the field on that frozen ground,the game is over,all now lay down...

The code

I'll signal you low ,it will be our underground code no one should know, it will be brief ,as always discrete ,I'll show it just once as you pass me by, just a half gesture response a blink of an eye, ready set go ,goodbye...like a hi wave on the highway or a low wave on the byways ,I chose the low wave like the old days, its still the old ways that out lives the new craze, for me its lifelong not just some middle aged drunk phase, wait em out till they're played,back to fade...

Celebrating time sitting above it all where I thought I should always be it just like they say lonely held captive by liberty thought of fellow companions suddenly realize I do or don't need em' time to think freedom from security sitting near the brink from extinction devising reasons to complete deletion of continual reaching,for straws waiting for that pause that confuses the crowd still singing quietly not out loud,sorry for whatever I'm sorry for.Just be aware don't care if you care never again will you fare so well...

suck it up sucker

As always I am tested holiday, today ,anytime every time.Hurt me, push me, desert me,always a sucker punch, I look away for just a moment without fail, a terrible crunch I never even peek, thought I had no need to seek, the truth of the dangers that surely do lie ahead in the shadows, bad luck often follows me can't ever see or even ever be free of the usual uncertainty, I'll catch my breath I'll survive the rest of my test, so go ahead hit me with your best, I love the attention chaos with no prevention acceptance without retaliation survival my only goal...

snow all over the place wind shredding my frozen face uncontrolled shivering giving me a headache running out of patience living in this state too broke to move to scared to run don't even know where really to find the melted sun wtf haha dreaming of a white sand christmas

Mooch

Alone from the beginning, struggling mostly, alone begging for food till its all gone ,had a stepper to help raise me then they too were gone .I had to struggle from the beginning then struggle all along. Left home at sixteen had to. had no home scene ,only had a vision to follow a dream, dreams fade and bad times remain but all in all kept my chin up your are who you are and I somehow seamed to be nice,nice felt right, it seemed to keep me in the game there were some good moments,they're the best they are the ones I remember they stand out from the rest, the sad ones seem to just blend like a long slow song ,but the good ones are like a dance, fast brief and happy. A fresh rhythm, a fresh lively beat, it feels so good makes it all complete.Then there were the children to keep me company.To occupy my days and humor me at night, they helped with chores they made things alright,now I think there are more good times than bad less frowns more scowls less sad,it continues it is my life...

12169

Again I breathe and heave a heavy sigh I have precious few memories which is why I seldom lie.One day bleeds into the next Its not confusing time and ambition are neck and neck both are losing I hope, maybe its not to late to save me, maybe if you say to me ,maybe.How about you what pace is your game? what price have you paid to remain practically the same or sane withdrawing to save face to maybe one day clear your name.Good luck goodbye good gain.

Patience

Once went along knew nothing new, sought and shared, it was all you could do, it was you,you had no choice thou you did think it through, it is fate so it must not be to late for all to transpire, there is some time left till you hit the wire, try if you will to decipher the desire ,you may realize your not wise to empathize with the unknown the less shown stick with your own homegrown its all often a safer journey thou less interesting,educational or rewarding to be off on your own, hang on,be strong life is not too long, your right if your wrong ,be strong...

My friend T

Let them figure their own destiny keep them away from your reality never take pain personally,truth is only what you make of it,its not the truth if its a lie its only a lie if you can't deny because nobody really know anything so always deny everything,your friend T

Strobe life

temptation is all in the timing,frustration from no connection to a condition I once understood before I was cured and then freed to again roam the wild plains of Africa all alone desperately seeking the reasons I am drawn to begin a journey I had previously journaled away yet again a journey I once did and still do believe in.

countdown

To tell a new tale of time one would wait feeling excited insecure not completely sure of what I'm waiting for,still wishing wondering waiting not hesitating trying not to hard to expect to much trying to keep it real trying to keep in touch with reality sanity playing down my vanity but still curious delirious seeking the awareness of the mysterious and so I wait,tick tick tick...