cool

So glad you figured it all out ,surely it was not all that difficult I am really quite simple I seldom cause any ripple in the karma of the universe most of my actions are are just reflexes simple evolution obvious easy to read how fucking proud of yourself you must be,master of the obvious,conquerer of the the creative, ruler of the world, and the destroyer of me...

Sabbath

I went to the ocean and let go some tears, had water to drink had let go some fears they were clouding my view, refreshed by the water and the thought of everything turning out ok sit and meditate take in the view ,it is still the seventh day occasionally its something I still must do,refreshed recharged renewed ,take one new step start on the rest of the trip just this occasional slip back in time to the beginning before I was losing ,before I was winning,before I met you,

strategy

When the king is a pawn,he knew it wouldn't take long to be placed in a position where he could no longer move or be in control of his destiny,now he just sits and watches the board he can only hope for errors mistakes and just worthy fate,his players are leaving the game,he's quite unprotected ,he feels so ashamed,when he was young seemingly not so long ago,he moved quick with little wit reckless and brash now so humiliated nearly alone running and hiding knowing he is only biding some time it won't be long,till this King is gone...There is no second game,your only hope is to try to change your strategy distract life with an occasional apology,time is the opponent life is the game,move less quickly,try to sustain your appreciation for your fellow players without trickery,or mockery of their game your on the same team,it is not all hopeless thou it may seem sometimes like a bad dream but its real so deal with it slow down before you go down for the count,the count is only one...

micha

I made the mistake of looking at your picture today..it hit me like a ray of light after days of darkness, I had to squint my eyes then shield my face and quickly look away

Why?

Something just ain't right I can feel it deep,It started the other night I noticed in my sleep,change is always coming I feel I'm being summoned its starting to give me the creeps,I'm sure I see ghosts its not unusual for me,till now they move slower so that I'm more sure of what I see,everything happens for a reason this is something I can no longer not believe in,still the spirits share their secrets of deceit,with me, I don't know what to do with such knowledge I am not allowed to share it indiscriminately,with just anybody,but I believe somebody knows what secret they must share with me,to complete this riddle,confer with me in a huddle together clarify the muddle that so confuses me,I feel it,I feel it is it you?

Almost

Sporting new reeboks ,just got out of detox just got home and found they changed the door locks,this used to be my home . I guess my life hit the jagged rocks ,need a new set of building blocks I can't make it on my own,when I was in detox I learned about what it takes to rebound when your life is upside down and you learn what it might feel like when you think your finally grown,they kicked me out ,I let them down gonna find some new friends that won't kick me around,I know it was my own fault now I can barely float ,someone throw me a life rope,or help me cope,I'm hoping for some fresh hope, I've had such a narrow scope on life and its possibilities searching calmly for new realities setting small goals so I might focus on what I've been told yet this soapy rope its hard to get hold, I've seen all my cards and I might just fold cause bluffing just ain't no good,and life is way too cold...

despair

There have been some setbacks but we are not quitters,surely our lives have not completely shattered into splinters, we are strong and resilient, durability never called into question, possibly we belong in the ranks that come along just every so often, such blind determination, we shall overcome all trials and tribulations,and push toward our goal until we at least believe we have won or have died from vain frustration,leaving haunting ghosts displacing our souls...

Suspence

All things considered not a day in recent past has gone by when I have not thought of you considered giving gifts to you sharing my feelings for you with you supporting you with what ever means are necessary to turn what little I have into plenty just for you,what is this madness that possess me, that steers my thoughts and fears for you, hugs my soul why ,is there even an answer ,does there need to be, do I want it just to be free or would I just deny it which would nullify it setting me free only to be lonely with no sense of purpose a hope to believe in, true faith surely to fulfill some ancient prophecy a storybook legend the longing spirit fantasy,maybe tomorrow it will fade maybe the very next day,I don't mind I don't know why I too won't just fade away...

winner

I sit here I wait had a good time I wait I feel weak thats life,I enjoyed living I enjoyed the fight,life is not full of losers just winners , death is when you lose not a scape goat not a holiday float thou all were there to see ,loved the attention love the free will and spirit that guide me love it live it fuck it get lost in it admit it it was fun, a good good run...almost said I love you all but I was afraid Kobe might have read it ,and you'd think I was drunk,and that would have cheapened the whole experience...

Dare

I haven't heard from you lately,and that disappoints me greatly I guess all I can do is wait and see patiently and you probably sit there waiting to hear from me well listen up I am doing fine towing the line and just occasional wine I still have a job don't dress like a slob and don't owe money to the mob.I recreate but I need to procreate maybe just start with a date with someone who can appreciate but I have gained some weight and I still feel great everyone still agrees with me,must have been something I ate but just can't wait to deliberate over what I want to celebrate for goodness sake...now you

Distance

Another minute gone how many left till satisfaction contentment happiness ,death,another minute gone time left to move on to the places I want to be so many places left to see so many some funny faces, so little time so little money ,another minute, should I start running recklessly move strategically or more slowly so I may understand what I see, I guess a mix of both its how I've seen the most ,in the past ,I been around the block the town the world, and in my mind most of the time,collected memories misplaced most plenty of room for more guess I know what they're for ,for when I just can't run any more just keep runnin run...

boo

The strangest thing that euphoric feeling that just barges in unexpectedly sometime just a brief stay others a bit longer like a sneeze all consuming somehow gives you hope oops then its gone flat line,hoping right away for the next time,till you forget then without regret pow there it is again dont know if its hope for the future or just lifeless despair then its gone just another day yet another way to remind me that I might not know everything about even me...

Sometimes

Can you avoid a void its not really there you can't see it coming suddenly your in it ,nothing to grab on to cant swim in it so you must just relax and wait till eventually you drift to the edge where finally you have something to grab on too and pull yourself out so relax and wait the edge is coming

One chance

In a moment I was gone no pain no warning no second chance ,this time,I should have done more or at least been more aware of life and nature beauty and opportunity to those I knew and moreover to those I did not,regrets,well too late for that should have enjoyed them too when I had the chance,what had sustained for so seemingly long is so suddenly gone and so am I ... Lost a fellow mechanic in Minnesota yesterday killed by gear doors be careful today people life is painful, death is painless,enjoy the pain

rodent relevance

Quick quiet so small the many rodents that run the wall clever they hide only reveal them selfs when they seem to move so darting quick only notice where they've been,never sure where they are or are going they prove irrelevance of time the past is as brief as the future as the present as the past moving on stopped and then gone

I have no secrets I'm not ashamed I have told you all that I know ,now I maybe blamed for all your wasted time and petty games ,still I love you I am unafraid to help you ,hold you ,hug you for me nothing has changed,you are incredible in quite a few ways its too bad you left but its simply better you did not stay

Convict

Theres emotions trickling to me ,a voice in my soul still calling to me I am a prisoner with no chance of parole ,a life sentence with no repentance hard time in the yard, some friends some enemies most dismiss my situation ,some present nourishment put down in front of me . I bide my time accept my punishment for the crime I'm sure I committed long ago . occasionally I beg for mercy if only to know I can still think and breath as I ease into everyday with no intention of changing my ways,the power of emotion beyond my ability to defend my fate an awesome power beyond my control...

I love you , miss you ,I want to slap you touch you, fuck hug and kiss you,, can never dis or dismiss you, not in the morning evening or late afternoon, always do try to consider the things that you do,I don't know why, never did ,I don't care why,the truth is hid from me I hardly consider it even my business its just reality,my constant strength is my constant weakness ,curiosity killed society, trying to make a little difference always been a priority with me,it is these constraints that keep me free my name maybe terry...

Present

Look back you get bored,look forward you get tired,so look to the sides that where the action is

strength

Certain state of mind took a little trip to help me unwind ,used to travel ,sell goods, sold what I could,of course had to support my need to feed my curiosity to fly and learn maybe relate to the unknown the great secrets on display to all of everyone, every day we all wonder though not all adventure, unable to travel, stay at the table that feeds us that believes in our needs hoping to help continuously free our anxiety ,over our ever expanding society ,hoping you never lied to me and defied that gravity which bounds me to you, only twenty paces behind at all times, still new reasons for the same old lines...