Ode to bullshit

It was just bullshit when I told you it would all work out,but it still made you feel better,I was mostly bullshit when I told that story how we did what we did then somehow got away but it made it a lot more interesting,and again just bullshit about being at that party naked and drunk but again it made it a hell of a lot funnier,and all those times when I bullshitted myself about feeling better and how I was gonna start getting things done,well at least it helped passed the time,and that complete bullshit story of how I was going to help my sick mother I told the cop when I was speeding and he let me go,thanks bullshit,I can never repay you,your always there for me,in my life your never ending,there at every turn your a big part of my life and for that I just want to say thanks and to say thanks I want to throw you a huge party,and my friend knows someone who works for the rolling stones and I'm pretty sure they will come play a couple songs for you,and I can rent a room at the casino for a reasonable rate and its all gonna happen real soon thank you my constant friend...

Always looking under rocks,have usually found nothing but thankfully I just can't stop I only once found something beautiful which fooled me into thinking that there must be more,more beautiful treasures ,more answers to questions ,better reasons then the ones I already know,finding then flipping, thankful I've still the strength,the creative vision the will to move on and keep on looking under rocks...

forever

"i wish you were here..sometimes I see you so clear but its my mind easing my soul illusion sometimes fills the hole that resides in my life since you had to go away,still thou I wish you were here

still

Still a moment still a lifetime,still artwork still uncertain still moving still a box of riddles still stopped at the end of the middle and the beginning of the end still whistling short tunes still wishing for silver spoons to feed my babies still too many maybes making me crazy leads to desperate decisions lacking true vision waiting for wisdom praying for freedom from responsibility for any current actions of stupidity that often that often represents a small percentage  of this my casual abnormality...

Turns out you're just another LA douchebag.So pretty to behold,fearless in your presentation foolish in your decision to carry on which surely your history may suggest will bore me and any other thinking stinking freaking being no one is that pretty to digest such petty conversation about you and how you believe you are responsible for your good looks your inherited monies your wannabe friends who may need to evolve to just to be partially understood,I now resume my inner solitude over your outward sad attitude but politely I say thank you for your time and the cheap bottle of wine I may not be kind but I know the kind I want to be with,good and night...douche bag

dr.

Who me did you think the last three thoughts through,did you think that whatever I said would stink I won't lie so did eyes looking at me deliberately I have no choice but to look back then look away then look back as if to say I know you so don't be afraid of anything I say that may interest or alarm the lay person so to speak my mind usually try to make it kind till I conjure up the punchline then throw it in your ear wait for the reaction hesitant that it may not be clear to the listener whom I cannot choose and should not prefer that becomes the challenge which I shunt shy away from on most any given day,are ya gettin this all down look at me please and please don't look away when I trying to read your face searching for the secrets that you can't explain to me in the verbal literary way look at me thats all just look at me...

overall average 47.0 mph moving average 61.4 mph max speed 97.5 mph total time 35.07 hrs moving tim total distance 1660 miles 26.50 hrs stopped 8.00 hrs smoky 10

passion

Passion, just a word and a belief a reason to give, a gift to receive, pure undeniable truth, unable to deceive giving some relief to relive to resume to relieve,the burden of loneliness and boredom only if for this moment, ever still a useful component in my life, in my strife, Passion desire obsession conspire to obtain and appreciate deliberate,conclude and proceed, distribute then retreat and slowly  drift away,

just one more

Thank for stopping by ,I know you have better things to do with your time,you came and stayed and said hello you stayed long enough till you had to go ,interesting somewhat fun ya it was fun you won I won nothing really came undone ,small revelations you maybe had enlightened me but I'm not sure if maybe you frightened me ,just a little,I feel like maybe I'm caught in the middle of your little extravaganza that left me on the piazza looking at the neighbors that despise me and left me with this such uncertainty that can only mean that you were meant to be alone and desperate with out me  good for you good for me, There you are there am me ,precision is to just an opinion it is the moral majority be thankful for what you go, that is crucial in every decision never will one rise above the rest unless all is in favor with out regret,hip hip hooray  you just won everything and all is gonna be okay,wished for a lot, just be thankful for what you got,started at the beginning but learned the end is worth a lot more even if once you were unsure now its over and you can relax the beginning was scary but the end is where its at...