Happy Halloween, no wait happy thanksgiving, what's the next time I can say hey,oh ya Christmas is coming I'll text you then if thats OK Just ignore me my old friend someday I'll just fade away then you'll be free of me no more text check mate you win I quit give in no shit lets face it you were never really worth it I was just way down and a little desperate so Christmas it is then I'll leave you alone, merry Christmas to you bitch

I was always destined for destruction despite the resurrection from the life of shame and disruption from routine normalcy some minor differences between you and me for instance your lies were always of substance my lies were futile resilance against make believe enemies I always thought surrounded me but they did not,never no woe too great never no song too long to write never too late to bring old truth to light two half wrongs won't make it right, still always I'll keep trying telling half truths like half lieing partly admitting partly denying conclusion, sophisticated bullshit spewing mass confusion creating endless verbal illusion only logic I shun a bit I just wasted your time get over it...Cause you wasted mine

If you think about it too long you'll always be disappointed

As the summer sun fades, we still go out to play somehow though its just not the same, shadows grows long, the brightest colors are gone we look within for strength, we try to remain strong we distract ourselves with holidays, celebrating our pagan ways, its OK brings us back together with family and friends, we do try to get along even if its just pretend, repetition leads to boredom, without enthusiasm frustration is just a passing thought, winter hibernation renews our soul at the expense of time...

Girl you feed me these lines that just melt my mind and pours out my hand and bleeds on the page I suddenly share my passion and rage try to sound relevant in this day and age trying to share everyones pain with everyone it seems so insane all the thoughts and lines you feed me just squeeze the juice from my brain and continues to tease me,take another shot share those thoughts please don't mind me, please don't stop... Dot dot dot

‎"like a ghost I'll be gone"you'll may believe in me or be just a little afraid of me you only know for sure you can no longer contain me, you may remember me as the insane me but just believe this, this miss aint gonna miss this chance to dismiss that mess you called this Bliss,wether you think you need this mess I don't digress Just cause its nearly Christmas and Theres other ghosts to contend with, you suddenly realize you miss this but you had the chance hop on the right ship and you missed it so, so long I'll make it right I'm Gonna take this flight, "like a ghost I'm gone"

My appreciation is extreme border line obscene so many holes in my soul makes it easy for the demons to get in but just as easy to leave nature baths me in beauty all my senses not just what I see I accept the pain physical mostly I don't know why everything has some affect on me but I love it its free and it frees me the demons have been bored with me lately they are sparse yet they wait perhaps one soul hole will close and keep one demon out I only hope its not one of my favorite ones,everyone needs company once in awhile so for now just sit back relax and smile...

You knew me before I knew myself you taught me countless amounts of philosophy how to deal with poverty, success and failure, and what is true wealth and to accept so much ,nothing more calming than your touch ,your hand resting on my head I don't always but often do refer to so many things you said I'm older now and better understand what you did for me I am brave I will refer to the strength you shared with me I shall share now for you...

Life is difficult not impossible..

I miss whatever it is about you that I miss

Don't over analyze it, just live it...

I waited to feel the joy of the holidays but it just never came its just not the same since the family went away no need for lights cause it just don't feel right no children singing no words to corny old songs, just blurred memories, they too are mostly gone, I don't care to be strong I am allowed to cry, thats my present to myself and that maybe a lie delivered by an elf,that its all OK it never really mattered anyway ,merry Christmas terri ,Papas gone away...

I truly enjoy your perspective of life of love of me what you think is sexy interesting ,dangerous amusing confusing ridiculous what makes you ticklish annoyed or fearless smile ness or picklepuss how or why you make a fuss and how you make my life so delicious it must just take such guts so mysterious so blatant wondrous thats why people stare at us they are so jealous and still I can't get enough your so tough you grew up rough but well thats all I got... Dot dot dot

I was happy in my harbor when you cut me free I'm slowly drifting past the inlet rocks drift out of the safety that surrounded me protected me from the angers of the the open ocean now the current carries me with uncertainty to uncharted waters and other sorted adventures the likes of which I have never seen and only seldom dreamed,soon the land and all known stability will fade completely I will drift for some time pass occaisional penisulas that jut out at me beckoning me to stop and look around but it slows my journey the search for some new harbor to set my anchor run aground,again protected from the giant sea and the maybe many fears and adventures that it offered me, do I choose complacency and safety, over adventure and freedom its mostly up to me...