holiday

I'm flying at thirty thousand feet to myself denying what this really means sitting here with coke in a cup the screen telling me im travelling at some crazy speed of course nobody believes such sillyness nobody would have the willingness to perform such feats temperature outside would freeze together your cheeks but I sit in here without fear sipping on my coke tapping out this joke just as warm as toast listening now to radiohead never understand what is said but maybe i like it that way just tap my feet recline my seat beg for more penuts to eat then hopefully drift away....

Back to L.A.

Too much time since we walked the beach in venice listened to the preachers preach the gospel of the freaks the barkers and the tumblers skateboad lovers and the other lovers we all discovered what we needed to know about ourselves and each other I must go back someday with you or without I need to see it both ways I hope its a sunday thats your day I like to think it as my day too,memories of deep sand seeing you in your element such happieness on your face I have the pictures I have the proof,this new age sound in my head so soothing tames my emotions so I may see them they are not always visable to me then they are there all too clear they sneak up on me and somtimes I'm just not all that ready but I inhale then exhale then I become steady on my feet eager to greet the past and fuse it with the present,making the fantasy the real thing enjoying the rush of feeling and the emotion it brings welcome back my friend welcome back...

Prominent

I love your nose it knows how to kiss my nose so corny so cute we do it like Eskimos now I know what they are talking about when I want excitement I take my nose and just whip it out right there for all to see us rubbing noses shamelessly live and learn size does matter olfactory sensory so sensitive to smell a flower so beautiful so sweet home cooked food such love and that attraction to you the mind is great the nose is greater looking down it never at you raise it to high in the air showing no fear go to where it leads you nuzzle it with me and I'll share mine with you...

Yes

I love you I love you I do I love you I love you I love you

please

Life is brief and the reaper is the thief who knows we are weak and cant stop what is to ultimately be but for awhile at least we can hold hands and be aware of each others stare and love it deeply before we disappear,there is never enough time but there is so much time to share with each other it doubles when we are together I share mine with you and you share your time with me even in our minds and our hearts our time multiplies come live longer with me

Ottoman Empire slap

I know you were comfortable with pretend I'm sorry I am the one who has to tell you it it must end its not that it was all unreal its just that it was mostly so untrue you had not achieved respectable status you were kidding yourself so you were glad that thing remained stagnant or status quo now I must bring you back with a little reality check a little reality slap in the spiritual face I have missed you on earth while you were traveling in space i know its gonna burn when you learn you haven't grown much since you lost touch with things that make thinking people blush welcome back,slap

The deep grass shields the tiny flowers of summer the breeze carries the last pollen of the season to its waiting destination the children are back in school and seams like forever I wait for the latest reason to believe in why I should wait for you ,the grass I now cut back the rains are so much ,vines hang from the trees the sun lowers to please the the creepers amongst the leaves lizards birds and frogs squirrels birds and raccoon summer dwindles for some too soon but for me right on time I don't see the line that separates one time from the other I do thou notice the weather subtle in its ways shadows growing longer with the shortening of days the brightest colors begin to fade flowers seek to sleep thou the oaks choose to stay another year another day...

Cosmos

The universe a diverse collection of energy that makes no apology for the state that it is in I too am a result of energy infused into the galaxy and the energy is increased when your energy is within proximity of me this does not confuse me it excites me my mind is enlightened my awareness is heightened my soul becomes frightened with nervous energy soaring through the plane of cosmic ionic delight,such energy will dissipate when your energy separates from me until then I will pretend that I am calm and in control of my energy but of course I am not dot dot dot...

The truth of youth often ignored we've grown bored cause we think we have heard it all before thou we are not sure so why listen dont want to be wrong dont want to rekindle care wont open old can of old fears remain unaware uninterested who needs that,just a pat on the back will get us by,listen but pay no attention to what I also say I am not young so I don't preach fun always some warning paranoid disposition so now who do or will or even should you listen to? your mother ha exaggerations and fiction the devout of whatever that makes me shutter maybe me, oh please we'll just let that be,your heart maybe it just cries like a baby and all those feelings just gonna make you crazy so I guess just listen to no one wait for some divine inspiration but remember some attention is required...

We have become a symbiotic relationship where as I depend on you for the survival of me,its is evolution that made us this way,I have grown unacceptably lazy in what you do for me and you to lazy in the tasks I perform for you,paper work for me?I don't think so change the oil for you,ha not in this lifetime,it seems to work like the birds on the rhinos back or plastic covered couches,neither at their fullest potential but a way to share a load disperse the pressure, humor each other share the insanity,scratch my back,rub your feet it is a way to complete what nature otherwise forgot to evolve this situation can resolve but it is handy if it does not...

I know your afraid well thats OK you may live with some fear and I will still be here distracting you from lifestyle wish you dread so cause I'm not the boss of you and you too are not the boss of me I love listening to you when you tell me you don't need anybody to listen I just smile and you smile back we do laugh and thats how we distract each other from the fact that we are together and life is just as simple as that,I think I understand,"life is what happens to you while your busy making other plans"

Who do they think they are trying to tell me who they think I am,obviously they can not understand the reasons I do the things I do why I say what I say the multitude of small setbacks I have faced along the way,they are quick to judge then when the truth is revealed they just as quick look the other way,their ego makes me look humble and reasonable they try to believe they are better than me to try to scare me away,I present no challenge for they do not interest me,their voices sound so petty perhaps they are jealous by my lack of concern interest or respect I only present them with the neglect that they have never experienced before they are left to stare at the door that has closed in their face they are important no more they just occupy space, judging me is a waste of time,yours not mine...

Hold

I do miss the banter the silly texts and e mails these memories still do inspire me they never make me sad I never felt a fool for doing everything I could for you,a lifetime of memories and you are still on my mind daily there are so few who do inspire me the way you do its all not a mystery to me it all still makes me happy fortunate and lucky there was no surprise when there was no prize that I could hold in my hand it was the look in your eyes that had me understand the meaning of win, the meaning of life,you often thanked me now I will thank you just for who you are and for many small things that you did do,thank you...

Its alway un expected out of the blue still here i am with you so many twists and turns so many tists and urns laughfter only gets me down ,thats not meant to be cliche' or to demand a frown its always the way before I get around I love you one two three love is not a big deal just a little something something between you and me,the smell of death the smell of lifedown to the water its always right to be wrong about somethings as long as you tried found that little something special that ling3ered inside yor soul like when you smokeda bowl but now your to old so you lash out and give a partial shout about what lifes all about still you don't give a crap and its alla backhanded slap in your fucking face your still in the race to nowhere where none wins and you wish it was the begining thou you fo

Regrets none disappointments somerevelatios maybe one classic study in human observation equels the sum.all gathered and found some 

comfort back to a place where they are still loved despite their shortcomings their handicaps go un acknowledged at least for today long lost childdren return as adults to act like children to be their old selves to see how they fared through so many years to compare success and failure wih their peers this reunion sometimes simplifies some confusion about life and ageing rearanging priorities

When i need too feel alive just got get out and ride I ll tell you my destination maybe an hour after i arrive gonna find some new tall tales covered in little white lies it a freedom and a luxury its only my gaudian angel and me,north maybe south only the bike knows I just follow, many miles a couple of days maybe Ill text you day after tomorro got to be, gonna be free just takin a ride my angel,curiosity and me...

I LISTENED to all your concerns and your stories about your daily struggles and worries even from time to time there were the occasional puch lines just to break it up I listen as best I can thou I don't always understand your reasoning sometimes i think you say crazy things just to see if I'm listening just to see my reaction and figure if I'm graspin what ever the hell it is your sayin,but there is no prize listening to your alibis it wont even make me wise but I love it anyway I need a dose every day it makes me strong when you go on and on about what went wrong today so go on I still long to hear what you have

to say...