suck it up sucker

As always I am tested holiday, today ,anytime every time.Hurt me, push me, desert me,always a sucker punch, I look away for just a moment without fail, a terrible crunch I never even peek, thought I had no need to seek, the truth of the dangers that surely do lie ahead in the shadows, bad luck often follows me can't ever see or even ever be free of the usual uncertainty, I'll catch my breath I'll survive the rest of my test, so go ahead hit me with your best, I love the attention chaos with no prevention acceptance without retaliation survival my only goal...