It happened all of a sudden ,realization is like finding an exit in the rear of the building,suddenly ,you want out,nobody walks past the exit to the alleyway,its always an easier escape,well hidden you'll be long gone before anybody even misses you,like the sudden exit, realization comes with little time to seek drastic solutions,and often hasty conclusions to lifelong situations,always we take the exit without thought or hesitation,but at least we feel a sudden freedom which of course demands a new responsibility you are now more accountable for your actions,no longer is ignorance your friend and constant companion,that permanent crutch,thou seemed helpful obviously slowed you down,At last that much needed backhanded bitch slap that put you back on the map and let you climb to the top of a heap of smoldering crap that is you life...