I waited to feel the joy of the holidays but it just never came its just not the same since the family went away no need for lights cause it just don't feel right no children singing no words to corny old songs, just blurred memories, they too are mostly gone, I don't care to be strong I am allowed to cry, thats my present to myself and that maybe a lie delivered by an elf,that its all OK it never really mattered anyway ,merry Christmas terri ,Papas gone away...