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My life is nearly half over and I don't feel I'm anywhere near halfway to my fated slated destination I try but theres so much distraction I spew nonsense just to git that knee jerk reaction but sometimes its just comes out a jerk,but i have little regrets its just something like teretts it just comes out right or wrong short or long I've been damned and thrown out ask to leave and shown the door always claim,whatever for? But I know don't really care won't really grow,get over it I am,got the only other call back on the velvet rope tour,they might have shown me the door but then I would have escaped gone to the authorities and reported rape of my mind simplest brain washing you'll ever find,that day is long gone,grade school where I was first made the fool high school there were a few only humor got me in trouble and yet kept me sane,and got me through..